It's funny how doors (to change and opportunities) open and close and you don't understand why they close. Or if you should even take the open door. I truly believe that God has a plan for everyone and those doors open and close according to that plan. And even though I believe that, it is still hard to know which way to go and wonder if I'm doing the right thing.
I've had a lot of changes in my life over the last several years. Those changes have been, at times, a little scary too. I've had a lot of successes and a lot of disappointments, as does everyone. All of which I believe were part of 'the plan'. I retired from teaching, two years ago, to pursue my art career. That has been a blessing for sure. Being able to work, at home, is perfect for me. But being self-employed is a little scary too.
Recently the opportunity to move across the state came along. We had been hoping to make that move for a couple of years now, but did not know if we would be able to. The door opened. Every thing fell into place. So we moved. Even though it is what I/we wanted, I still wondered if it was the right thing to do. Was this in the plan? I have to believe it is. But it is still scary.
Recently I applied for an Art Teaching job that is close by. I thought that maybe the plan was for me to teach for a year. So I applied. But the door closed and I didn't even get a call for an interview. Disappointed? Yes, but I'm sure that the door closed for a reason. If I were teaching, I would be spread too thin. I would not be able to do what I love...work on my own art.
Then today, I saw a video made by a very successful person. He was talking about why he is so successful. Although this video was created over 2 years ago, it spoke to me. He said "he was successful Only by the Grace of God." Because of his faith, he worked hard at that 'one' thing that made him successful. He said not to spread yourself thin.
"Focus on one thing, make it your priority and stick with it no matter what."
Yes, I am quoting Tyler Perry. (See the video below) I really don't know much about Tyler Perry, except that he created the character Madea. He is funny, famous, successful. But I found these words spoke to me and what I've been struggling with. I found him to be an inspiration. I need to water the seeds that I have. Not keep planting more. Yes, it is scary, but I have to have faith and believe.
Gotta go water my seeds.
Beth♥
Here is the video. Enjoy.